Losing it

Food — By Crust on April 11, 2010

I’m losing it a little. I’ve been having some dark times. Some extreme ups and downs. I’m trying to go on ‘the pill’ again. It makes me feel like not getting out of bed, then when I do I either have waves of anxiety or I feel like there is an empty hole inside me pulling me down. I ‘ve been struggleing to explain my behavior at work, prep is hard. I wonder if the guys are losing respect for me. The only upside is that no matter how bad I feel or how hard it is for me to keep it together during prep, I never let my mood affect my service, ever. This is new for me, at Feenie’s if I was falling apart it was bad, but now I’ve matured as a cook, service is business. Jeremie is so great, he says he took me on for better or worse. He’s just shocked at how low I can get during prep, but we all get through it as a team. I’m giving ‘the pill’ one month and if I’m not adjusted by then I’ll stop it. Another symptom is claustrophobia, so on my day off I drove off to the woods to try and feel better.

7 Comments

  1. nicole says:

    Ummm what on earth are you doing my dear? You are a crazy person–crazy people should stay off the pill! Use condoms seriously. You should call me when you get a second. I miss you.

  2. Troy says:

    nicole, I think condoms should be used recreationally 🙂 Hope you feel better Christie!

  3. mum says:

    I need you to call me too… okay??

  4. nicole says:

    Haha Troy! I deserve that for my lack of punctuation skills…

  5. Lisa says:

    You have to stick through it! The first month is always hard and you feel nausous and just plain sick and don’t know if you want to throw up or take a tylenol. You can take a gravol which helps but makes you tired. Hope you feel better.

  6. Colleen says:

    Or you could try an IUD. They are far less invasive than they used to be, and contain about 1/10 the amount of hormone that your pills use. The hormone is applied directly to the area that needs it most rather than passing through your digestive system.

    You might find a huge difference.

    I have finally stopped using my pills after 20 years and am so freaking glad that I am off of them. They suck. They did the job for sure, but I feel so much better mentally and physically now.

  7. mum says:

    Once again, Colleen is right on with her advice. It works well for many, and worth a try. Love yo momma xoxoxoxoxo

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